Today I started reading some other blogs on WordPress. I really enjoy the Freshly Pressed section – new posts by clever writers that make me feel alternatively inferior and inspired. This strange mix of motivation in fact prompted me to decide that if I am going to be writing a blog, I should aim to be recognized in the Freshly Pressed section. So, I began looking for a blogger like me. I began combing the archives to see if someone unqualified was writing a blog. Of course, silly me, I found that there is a cornucopia of unprofessional writers out there (the professionals mostly write books I think). But most of the bloggers are traveling the world, chronicling athletic endeavors, have gardens, write recipes, offer step-by-step craft photos, or have “littles”. That last one I learned is blog-speak for children. None of those apply to a single nursing student in Hawaii. So, next I search “How to be freshly pressed.” In the space of 20 minutes, this has become an important achievement in my mind. What I find is that I need to be aware of my content and make it popular and original and unbiased. Ok, I can do that. I start crafting a really hilarious and unbiased blog entry in my head almost instantly. Oh, this will be good. I will be pressed so fresh.
And then I realize it is all wrong. It is not brave. It is not real. It is not me.
I started this blog to be brave and to encourage others to be brave. I wrote things down to read out loud to my mom on the weekends I spent with her at the Ala Moana hotel during radiation treatments. She and I needed encouragement for our wonderful fights. She is finished with hers and I am still at it. So I am going to keep writing to be brave which is not a popular “search” term. I am going to keep writing to point others to Jesus which is quite biased. I am going to keep encouraging YOU to fight wonderfully because we can do it. Along the way I hope to have gardens and try recipes, plan parties, paint pictures, and even have “littles” because those are all GOOD things! But they are by-products of a life well lived, looking to a mighty God for the strength to face each day.
Wishing you all a brave Sunday to begin a bold new week.